It was incredibly difficult for both Ezra and me with many tears and discomfort. Ezra cried every time I dropped him off for the first 3 weeks or so and would sometimes cry after I met him for lunch in the cafeteria and then left. He was begging me almost daily to homeschool him and it made my heart ache.
For now he's still in public school. Is it the right choice? I honestly don't know. We don't fight as much, so we have a better relationship, he has made some friends, he understands what a full day of school means and he is learning some things that I wouldn't have even thought to include in our curriculum. I am happy to have more time to take care of our other kids, but I still really miss my Ez.
I really think my heart is still set on homeschooling. I loved that we could focus on what he's good at (like math.. they don't do much math at all at his school and it's so frustrating!) Thankfully his reading is improving and I am not pulling out my hair any more when we sit and read together. He is learning and growing and his teacher is great so it's working out okay.
I do plan on homeschooling through the summer regardless of what we decide for him next year. I'm pretty sure Makai will be going to public school for kindergarten so if he goes then I'm sure we'll end up sending Ezra back as well, but I'm keeping my mind and heart open trying to figure out what is best for these babies. I just wish school was three days a week for like 4 hours a day and then he was mine the rest of the time. That would be ideal. Ugh. Toughest decision I've had to make as a parent so far :/ Wish me luck!
Here is Ez Bez on his first day of school:
2 comments:
He's a smart kid! He just needs time to adjust, as does his Mommy. You did a great job homeschooling him when you could. Love you
Mom/Nana
Awww this is soooo tough. I go back and forth a lot too - mostly I want to send her to show her how good she has it! HA. So terrible. I just feel this crazy pressure that is all inside my head and I fight with "what other people will think" all the time. That will be my biggest struggle. It's just hard. I have to say that you are awesome and are trying to figure out just like the rest of us what is best for our babies - most people could care less. If it keeps your relationship better, then that's what matters right now! I fought hard with Norah at first then realized I had to back off or she just pushed harder. This parenting thing is TOUGH.
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